Gled this one is for you!!!
Wisconsin is hellish. The closest biggest city is Miluakee which is about an hour north of Chicago. I love Chicago, its where I used to go to buy large amounts of dope. China White babe. I do have friends belive it or not, but I've put myself in exile. Why? I'm not even sure. I just do not like people unless I am high. Maybe I do like people too much and can't bear to watch all the suffering we put eachother thru. Meghan is my closest freind. We met in my first rehab, the actuall 28 day inpatient treatment center in Green Bay WI. She was the only other IV Heroin addict. We bonded immediatly. She has the same brand of dry humour I like to think I have. Meghan and I have a weird relationship though. We use eachother to get drugs. If I have something in exess I call her, and if she has somthing in exess she calls me. We like to share with eachother. If something bad happens to one of us we are there for eachother in an instant. I love Meghan with all my heart. I love her baby Sophia too. Since Meghan became a mother its like she knows somthing more than I can know, and I know that is true. A mothers love for their child is something only a mother can know.
I'm forgetting your email already. Why did she put the spoon on the cheese?
The fact that your NEARLY forty makes no diffrence to me. Give me another good reason. I'm still all about a photo. I haven't checked you blog yet today, so if its up I appoligize.
Hawaii. As I've said before, I looked at the past with rose colored glasses on. As soon as something is taken away from me I am instantly nostaligic. I must be one of those narracisstic assholes who only appreciates something when its gone. (took that last sentence from Kurt's suicide note) So I miss Hawaii dearly. Mainly though I miss the city. Its like I need a big city to function. I need to know there is a dealer in Chinatown that I can call at a moments notice. I need a bus or subway to get where I'm going without a fucking car. I need lots of people around me so I can hate all of them except the one or two I pick out as dear friends. I tend to attach myself to people. I find one person I can really be genuine with and in my mind and body that person is as dear to me as my family. I'm saying dear way too much. I love people with accent and I can't help but mimic them when speaking with them. I swear on my sister's grave that I do it uncousiosly. Really any city will do, any English speaking country. I count three of them, USA, England, Irealand...wait four Austrailia. No I never got sick of Aloha. Its a beautiful word which means love. Your always greeted with love.
I have a question. Do they have an equivalant to Social Secutity Disabilty in England? Just curious. Just incase your wondering what your reading, pretty much a email to Gled. Those of you who don't know Gled should go check out his blog Gledwood main blog vol. 2 go to my profile and see it in the blogs that I read.
I have more to say, but I'm on the phone with Meghan.