So decisions have been made, and some of them I don't like. Turns out my parents don't want me to go to Hawaii with them. They want me to stay home, and take care of Eleanor my dog. They want me to stay home because I need to keep seeing my phycitartist. There are alot of reasons, btw the real main reason is because when I come back to Wisconsin from Hawaii I won't be allowed back in the Methadone clinic. If I had a regular supply of Heroin or even Dilaudid I would be fine, but I don't. Here in Green Bay Heroin is way over priced and cut to shit. I would have to go to Chicago every week. That would break my bank. I only 675 dollars a month from Federal government plus 85 dollars a month from the state. Right now I'm getting my Methadone for free. My insurance pays for it. Both in Hawaii and here in Wisconsin. My parents and the clinic will let me visit them for a month. I was thinking if I go to visit them in Hawaii their last month there, I would just stay.
In Hawaii they have really great services for people on SSI. For instance the government would pay for me to stay in a Hostel until a housing unit would become available where I would only have to pay whatever I can afford. Also in Hawaii I can get alot more money from the state, Four hundred a month plus the Six hundred and seventy five dollars. ( the number four on my keypad doesn't work so I have to spell it out) So that is over 1,000 dollars a month. While I'm in the Hostel my 675 dollars a month would be cut in half because they are paying for my housing. If my housing is being paid for then my food stamp money would be more. It's easy to get people to give me cash for the food stamps. Especailly families where the parents are alcoholic. They need the food stamps so they don't spend all their cash on alcohol and leave their children to starve.
The Methadone clinic in Hawaii is alot easier to maneuver. Plus if I get kicked out of one I can go to the other one. There are two on the island of Oahu in the city of Honolulu.
So I stay here with Eleanor for two months by myself. Then on the last month they are their, I would go, and would get everything set up so I could live there after they leave. I would leave Eleanor in a great Kennel for small dogs, where they always have a person there to take care of them, and they even have a TV on because most small dogs are used to having a TV on all the time. They get four ours outside everyday. The cages they have to be in overnight are huge for a dog the size if not smaller than a newborn baby. The size of a bunny is more accurate. It would only be three weeks. 21 days. My aunt Debbie would go to visit her at least once a week.
A positive part of being left alone for two months would be I rarely eat when I live by myself, I sit naked and do alot writing story after story. Some loosely based fiction, and alot of non fiction. Also I would have access to all my parents Credit cards. Well all two of them, and one debit card. I will loose weight which is never a bad thing, and I will have the privacy to bring a man to my house and fuck him. Gled did you ever want to visit Wisconsin in America. LOL! This probably embarrassed Gledwood. BTW, what is your real name Gled? Is it Gled?
So what do think about the new plans? Should I go with them right away, and say fuck the Methadone clinic, and just never come back? If my plans fall though as they are now, and when I visit them in Hawaii, and if I decide I don't want to stay there, because I want to move to New York City or anywhere else instead. I am a fickle person, but what if I come back to Wisconsin and stay here for a few months in between? I have no methadone, and the only way for me to feel normal is to use illegal drugs.
Do you think I should go with them right now? Leave with them on the 3rd? I need some feed back. I would like some feed back, but you don't have to comment. This blog is rather boring. As I've said before, like you people give a fuck about these mundane parts of my life. Who cares if I'm in a pickle over going to Hawaii of staying here and visiting my parents in Hawaii after I'm stabilized on my Methadone dose.
I thank you for reading my blog. I means alot to me, and to all my new followers, thank you. I should thank Shane aka Heroinhead for posting a link to my sight and for posting my ode to him on his blog. Shane has an amazing blog.