There is this new blogger that I love to read, theguyinthebluesilktaffatdadress.blogspot.com he is very interesting. He doesn't have that many posts, but the ones he does have are interesting, and he takes requests. He'll write about anything you want him to. I wish I knew how to put up a link. Like on myspace when you write in a web address it automatically puts up a link. Not on blogger though.
Anyway, my life is a bore. Like an idiot I emailed Jess the other night. I was looking at guys on Okcupid.com, and all that I saw were douche bags, and I emailed Jess and asked why everyone is such a douche bay, then I told him that I was wrong when I said the name of his band was not very original. He emailed me back, and said Blood Hawk is a good name, and big titty blonds good. The reason he said big titty blonds good is because last time we were together we were watching a show and we stopped on this show that showed this hot blond with big boobs doing the bills, and Jess said I wish I had big titty blond who did my bills. I agreed with him, and said maybe when he gets his groupies. So I emailed him back big titty blonds who do your bills better.
About a half hour later I emailed him and asked if he had any big boobed blond groupies yet? He emailed me back a half hour later, no, right now he just wants to rock out. Then I emailed him back and said something to effect that every little boy wants to grow up and be a in a band for the chicks, only girls join bands just for the music example riot grrrl. I sounded like a bitchy know it all.
The next day I just happened to go on the laptop and enter into my email(normally I just check my email on my phone) and looked at all my sent emails all way back from this summer. Most of them to Jess. The last one I sent I re read, and I sounded like such a know it all bitch, that I sent him a email early that morning saying, guys do join bands just for the music, and groupies are just a side affect sort of. I sounded like I knew everything in that last email and I don't.
I feel so stupid for even fucking emailing him. I was just bored. I don't want to talk about anything but sex with Jess. Now that Jess is in a band, he doesn't really have time for me. Which is fine with me. I can do without. I like Jess' sex, but I lived without it before I met him and I can do without after he's moved on. I just don't want him to think I'm obsessed with him again, after this summers disaster.
Its just I get really bored, and get to thinking were friends and that I could email him without any kind of meaning behind it. I guess you can't do that with someone your having casual sex with or were having casual sex with. Casual sex is suppose to no strings attached and easy, not complicated and weird. Am I the one making it complicated and weird? He never said no communication in between sex.
Fuck, enough about him. There are two guys on Okcupid that contacted me that I'm interested in. Sean, the guy I had a date with still contacts me, but he's having a hard time in between jobs. We never said we were exclusive, so I can still date. I might meet up with one of the guys who contacted me and watch some documentaries on William S. Burroughs. Right now I'm reading Word Virus, a bio of Burroughs. Suggested by one of the readers of this blog.
I got to go. I needs me a cigarette.