I've been using again every day. I have to say in a way Heroin has picked me up by the bootstraps and given me the kick in the ass I need. I no longer spend all day on the couch, I get out find money, find dope, use dope, change my clothes. Heroin holds me together. I don't feel depressed, in fact I feel amazing. Of course my tolerance has shot up much faster than I would like. I'm using China white and spending about 60 dollars a day. One shot in the morning, one shot in the afternoon, and one shot at night. I never was a four shot a day person. Three always got me thru. I make the one at night a big one.
I don't even hide it from my parents. They feel that as long as I'm in there house I'm safe. It sucks that I'm a total disappointment to them, but Heroin makes that bad feeling go away. My parents found out by looking at my arms. The bruises, and holes. I got this one really good vein. I don't want it to go away on me, so I am taking good care with it. I shower every morning, and use an alcohol wipe before I inject.
I've never blogged while using full fledged. I think my parents called that show intervention here in America. I stay out of their way pretty much. I usually get my morning shot at my dealers house. Its like leaving for the Methadone clinic every morning. I get Dilauded too, not just H. The Dilauded is more expensive, but I like it because it cooks up easy, and you know exactly what your getting and how much your getting.
I haven't been keeping up with other peoples blogs like I used to, but today I'm reading my top five and seeing what I missed. I haven't checked my emails even in a day. I normally check my emails everyday. Of course the Heroin is going to take my attention away from some of my everyday normalcy. I figure when my parents get totally fed up with me using, or when I run out of money because my tolerance is too high, I'll switch to the Methadone again.
Right now though I'm on a cloud. Hopefully I won't have to come down for a while.
I got to go, because I keep nodding out on this keyboard.