Tuesday, January 4, 2011

This is the song that is my life.
Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you, I hate your face. Always...why can't you see. Stupid junky tied me down. Cut my lips and I won't I can't get better. I thought the world owed me a smile. Monday does not apply to you. Dig my hug into the ground. Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you. I hate my face. I waste my life, why can't I see.

8 comments:

Gledwood said...

Hi Anna :-)

I love that song and the video is pretty cool, doncha think? It reminds me of when I had an extended psychedelic "breakdown" (breakdown isn't really the right word, I was just a bit under the weather and used to see faces everywhere, in walls, in shadows, in the carpet...) that video reminds me of being in that state. It lasted for months on end. Has that ever happened to you..?

Have a good trip away.

I left a comment at mine: you know you CAN post via email, but I'm not 100% sure how you do it. You need to set it up with blogger with a named email account. Just try a test post first and see if/how it works. I can't see that it wouldn't work...

... is Eleanor Rigby coming with you? Are you driving? WHEN ARE YOU COMING HOME??

Danny said...

"dig my hug into the ground"...Anna, fuck the haters, you included...that's fuckin genius and so are you, sweetheart.

hope you're feeling better soon.

Anonymous said...

WHY DO YOU HATE EVERYTHING?

Gledwood said...

You know it's Wednesday tomorrow... technically here it's Wednesday already. Doesn't feel like it at all. I had to pick up my dose yesterday though it felt like Sunday.

I've had 30mg of lovely Restoril just now... that's what temazepam is called in the States. I just found out. Do you think Restoril's any good? I don't hear of Americans mentioning it that much. They seem well into Xanax alprazolam, which we don't use here. I tried alprazolam a few times and it just did not do it for me. Cannot remember whether it was 1mg or 1.5mg but whatever strength it was it was CRAP. Nowhere near as good as Valium or Rohypnol for that matter. Rohypnol is a single milligram and they work like a dream.

But Restoril is pretty much THEE benzo of choice amongst UK druggies. Valium coming in at #2, Rohypnol would be #3. Not everyone likes Rowies as they're more expensive, the modern formulation is bright green which was disconcerting as I wanted to bang mine up. In the end I relented and just swallowed it. Speaking as someone who's used Coca Cola for hit water I wouldn't bang up intense green dye. I had images of the whites of my eyes turning greeny blue..!

Anna I have NEWS!

MELODY LEE IS BACK!!!

No kidding. Come and see:~

http://melodyleeisdamned.blogspot.com

Have a great trip. Be sure to read my blog. Send me some comments. See if you can post from your phone. I'm pretty sure you can you know, you just set it up for email posting.

The video works really well.

I put one up for you.

xxxoxxx ;-)

Anonymous said...

hi anna,i read your blog cos i read gledwood ,found him when i googled heroin drought uk....i just wanted to say that you guys keep me going,you both talented people.i think you are lovely.
Annie xxxx

Maureen said...

Anna, Hey sweetie, ur being too hard on urself! If YOU are a loser, junkie, fuck up then so I am
and I am old enough to be ur Mum!
Maybe, sub isn't 4 YOU, I don't know!!!!???????????
However, I do know as does A SELECT FEW that DO COMMENT, UR A BEAUTIFUL WOMAN, so PLEASE DO NOT THINK OTHERWISE!
WE ADDICTS ALWAYS BLAME OURSELVES 4 EVERYTHING!!!
LOVE YOU ANNA,
Maureen

Maureen said...

Anna, Hey sweetie, ur being too hard on urself! If YOU are a loser, junkie, fuck up then so I am
and I am old enough to be ur Mum!
Maybe, sub isn't 4 YOU, I don't know!!!!???????????
However, I do know as does A SELECT FEW that DO COMMENT, UR A BEAUTIFUL WOMAN, so PLEASE DO NOT THINK OTHERWISE!
WE ADDICTS ALWAYS BLAME OURSELVES 4 EVERYTHING!!!
LOVE YOU ANNA,
Maureen

Maureen said...

Anna, Did not mean 4 my comment 2 show up twice! YOU see I fucked it up!
Take care of YOU
Love,
Maureen
P.S. Gledwood, I was prescribed Restoril back in 1981, when my Dad passed away. The fricken clinic doctor prescribed it. He was not of American descent. ( whatever that means anyways)
Plus, they took into account, that I was grieving, as they had just gotten me back as a "client"! WE ARE PATIENTS, so they tell us!!!
So, YOU see the clinics can HELP or be Ruthless people. IMHO