My birthday was Feb. 2nd. The day Gledwood posted a post about me, and sent me a song. Which I would like to thank him in my blog.
I haven't used Heroin in over four days. I was sick as a dog for the past three days, now I'm feeling better, but I just want to use. The reason I haven't used is because I don't have the money. My direct deposit hasn't come in yet.
I am going to duel diagnosis on Feb 20th and I'll be gone for 90 days that means no posts for 90 days, unless they have the Internet there. Its not like jail so they might have Internet there. I can bring my phone and that has Internet on it, and I can post from my phone.
I'm going to miss Eleanor. My baby girl is so perfect. I only get to see her when i come here to my parents house. I miss her all the time. She is my reason to get clean.
I've come to the conclusion, some people are meant to use heroin. Some people, me included are just not meant to be junkies. I can't take the stress it puts on me, by disappointing my parents. I can't just say screw everyone I'm going to do what I want. Perhaps after my parents pass on, I'll go back to it. That is if I even feel like it.
Does anyone know how many Percocets are equal to four mgs of suboxone? I tried taking Percocets to ease my withdrawals. The Suboxone kept me from getting sick, now I'm out of Suboxone. Please be a doctor out there to help me. Although Percocets have Tylenol in them and that does a number on my liver, and I already have Hep C. So I can't take too many Percocets. Five is my limit. The Percocets are free.
I know this goes against my getting clean, but I'm desperate to get that feeling back.
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