Whats new with me? Well I've been clean for five full days. I'm only using every once in a while now. I moved back in with my parents. Right now I'm watching the Twilight saga movies. I have all three, and can't wait for the next installment to come out. Some one complained that I talk about my dog to much. Well I'm glad to be back with Eleanor. She is the sweetest thing to me. I'm off to rehab for 90 days soon, and I won't be able to see her. Maybe on visits, but not like now.
Its strange normally I dread rehab, but this time I'm actually looking forward to it. I wanna get my meds straightened out. I want to live a clean life again. This time without Methadone, or Suboxone. A truely clean me. It sounds insane. Me clean. WTF!
Lately I've been going to water arobics classes with my mom at the YWCA, and its alot of fun. Of course I only go on days that I've used. Otherwise I just don't feel like doing anything. Like today I feel lousey, and am just sitting on the couch watching movies. I do have some H to use up. My mom and dad went shopping, and after I'm done typeing this up I might go bang up. Not really a might, I will. Then I get down on the floor and play with Eleanor.
The main thing thats going to suck about rehab is that I won't be able to use in there. I will be able to wear my pinnk sweatpants all the time. Will match my phone. Thank god you can still smoke in rehab.
My moods have been up and down, but thats because I've been on and off drugs.