I'm reading the Girl with the Dragon Tatoo, and I'm about a 100 pages in, and the book sucks. I don't know what everyone sees in this shit. Too much detail, just like Steven King. I could never read his books. I once read part of one of Steven Kings books, and he described shoe laces and took up a full paragrah to describe these damn shoe laces. Needless to say, I'm shopping for another Ebook. I'm waiting for the edit of my book to be done. I had to make revisions last month, and it set back the date my book will be available for purchase on my blog, and on Amazon.com. The book is called I Hate Myself and Want to Die. Its about Heroin addiction and suicide. If you want to read excerpts go back in my blog to Dec. of last year. I have to thank once again BMelonsandLemonade for helping make the book readable. She gave me priceless advice I dearly needed.
Home alone again, and waking up to Televison. My only socialization. Not totally true, yesterday I went to water aerobics yesterday with my aunt Debbie, and talked to my parents on the phone. Since its so warm out today I'm not going to the gym, I'm going to take Eleanor for a long walk.
My mood is manic, I'm doing the best I've done on weight watchers this week, why I told you that I don't know.
Yesterday I got a call from my Dr. My acutal Dr. called me and said he was worried about me, so he wants me to come into his office tomorrow at 8:15 am. He's afraid I'm going to fall off the edge of happiness into the abyss of depression. I'm worried about it too. I know when I get really depressed I attempt suicide almost on a lark. Like I don't care if I live or die. Right now its great to be alive. Its sunny and warm. I have my lovely dog, and this blog. I'm going on vacation in April for two weeks, or longer. Hopefully my Doctor won't put kabosh on that. If he thinks I'm too manic I could end up in Brown County Mental Hospital yet again. It would be my seventh time there.
My doctor took me off Aderal, but I'm still manic from it. Its like my brain has never come down from a speed high. Which would explain all the cleaning I do. I painted my finger nails red. Well I have nothing left to say, so I'll say good bye, and I'm going to go e shopping for another book.
Much love to all you who read this.