I'm in a great mood today, as I'm high. Although Eleanor(my dog) has something wrong with her ears. She keeps shaking her head. I'm afraid she has ear mites. She could have gotten them from the mouse I think I've seen scurring around after Eleanor goes to bed. Today I gave her a flea bath in case its fleas. I'm going to go to Petco and buy some ear mite medicine just in case its ear mites. See I'm pretty productive when I'm high. Not when I'm loaded, but when I do just enough to catch a good buzz. Its like a glow, my body feels great, my mind feels great.
Today I have to vacuum, wash the floors, run the dishwasher, do some laundry. Then my friend is coming over and we are going to the bar. I won't drink because why drink when I already feel great. Drinking just makes me depressed. The other day when I was waiting on dope, I drank Vodka mixed with Crystal light lemonade. I ended up so depressed. I don't know how Gledwood can drink without getting even more depressed.
OH yes, when I was on the phone with my friend Kaycee I told her that I was clean. Well, it turns out she reads my blog, and knew I was bullshitting her whenever I talked about sobriety. Sorry Kaycee. I'm just embarrassed to be a drug addict, and your doing so well. When will I ever get my shit together?
Gledwood is in a very bad way right now, and I ask those of you who pray that you keep him in your prayers. Otherwise just send him good wishes.
So my book has been edited, and this is what they told me. "your book was written more like a screen play, so we had to do a content editing instead of just line editing." I guess I used too much dialogue, also my sentence structure was terrible. Which they tried to put in a nice way, but it was a nice way of saying you suck at writing, and we had to do a shit ton of editing. I must say they didn't change the book drastically, but they did fix my writing drastically. I never did proof read my book before editing, I figured that was their job, but with my next book I'm for sure going to do proof reading, and by a book on sentence structure to make sure my sentences are structured correctly. If I were not high right now, I'd be more down on myself about this. Right now being high I feel like I can learn to be a better writer. I've already finished my second novel/manuscript called teenage angst. I'll post a tid bit for you guys in my next post.
Both my parents are in Arizona again. So its just me and Eleanor(my dog) here in Wisconsin. I emailed Jess(a guy I used to sleep with and was obsessed with for a few months last summer) and asked him to come over and give it to me hard. So next Wednesday we are going to fuck. I can't wait, I've lost nearly 45lbs. He hasn't seen me since I lost the weight. My boobs are smaller, but so is my ass. Hopefully he'll be turned on. When he gets here I'm going to be just sitting around naked with my dildo out. As soon as he gets in the door, I'm going to undress him, and get down on my knees and suck his cock. I'm going to suck his cock until he's just about ready to cum, then I'm going to make him watch me masturbate until I cum. After that I'm going to lay him down in my bed, and get on top of him and his hard cock, and I'm going to ride him reverse cowgirl style. Gently play with his balls. I'll ride him slowly letting my pussy come right up to the tip of his cock, almost all the way out, then I'll come down on him slowly, but hard. All the while I'll be playing with his balls, and my nipples. I'm going to go just a little bit faster, then I'm going to take his cock out of my pussy, and suck on it again. Then right before he cums I'm going to get into doggy style position so he can put his cock in me hard, and fuck me hard and fast until he cums. When he pulls out I'll quickly turn over and let him cum on my tits. I love to see a man cum. Then feel the warm cum on my tits.
I wanna fuck you like an animal. As all songs I pick this one is for Gledwood.