The sky is moody today. I'm in withdrawals, sick as a dog I am. Although my mood is elevated. I feel like I'm in a manic episode. This morning I played Radiohead KidA really loud. Bothering the other tenets in the building. I've never had a sick manic episode. I keep repeating words over and over, along with sentence fragments. Not able to get all of the sentence out. I'm moody just like the sky. I'm sick, but not so sick that I'm on the phone with every possible source of Heroin or Dilauded. I'm not Dr. shopping. In whole I'm not doing what I usually do when I'm sick.
I have all these weird thoughts flying at me. Like I wonder how fish gills work? Did fish always have gills? Whats the difference between fish and paint thinner? They both smell bad. Was I born with a sixth toe and my parents just didn't tell me? Would Radiohead not wear underwear on the road? This is all coming at me at once. Then I feel the need to move. Not just legs jerking like usual when I'm sick, but wanting to dance, and scream. My dog thinks I'm going insane. Maybe I am. Maybe this is a drug induced mania. I'm thinking it probably is. I've been without any opiates for two days now. Tomorrow I get more, but why when I feel this good mentally?