I've been on a binge. Using everyday. Today I had to wait until 4 pm to get a bag of dope. My dealer wasn't answering his fucking phone all morning. I've been hitting the heroin hard for almost two weeks now. I'm only getting mildly sick when I run out. I can still go 24 hours before I need another shot. I'm going to try to go back to the Methadone clinic if they will take me back. I can't aford all the money its costing me to keep up this habit, and all the worrying about when will my dealer will answer his phone.
I'm starting up a close freindship with Jose, a Latino guy who intorduced me to my dealer. Jose is on Methadone, but not at the clinic here in Green Bay. He was kick out of there for some reason. He won't tell me why. So he drives or gets a ride to Appleton everyday to get his methadone dose. His Ex girlfriend, my best freind are broken up, but she still gives him a ride to the clinic in Appelton everyday. Jose, and my best friend will forever be tied together by thier daughter. Jose is still really borken up about the break up. Everytime my freind picks him up to bring him to dose he starts crying.
Appelton is about 25 minutes away. I've tried to get into the clinic in Appelton, but they won't have, because they say there is no reason why I can't go to the clinic in Green Bay. If the Green Bay clinic won't let me back in, Appleton's clinic still won't take me. They say, "Green Bay must have a good reason not to take you back, so we are not going to take you on".
I haven't been keeping up on my favorite blogs. Sorry Gledwood. You know I love you cyber hubby.
I can't write anymore because I'm nodding out.