I'm in Greenville North Carolina. We left Friday at 5am. Leaving Green Bay WI behind, along with my heroin connections was painful. The last time I got high was on Thursday night. Now I'm down in the dumps from depression from withdrawal. I feel like I can't put one foot in front of the other.
On our way down here we stopped in Memphis TN, to see Graceland. You know, where Elvis lived. While there I just wished I was high so I could enjoy it. I'm so pathetic I can't enjoy anything with out some heroin for liquid courage. Liquid life. Anyway, Graceland was a lot smaller than shown on TV. Its a real tourist attraction. Head phones and everything to give the tour. Of course you weren't allowed upstairs in the bathroom where Elvis died.
When I go to Seattle I want to see the house that Courtney and Kurt lived in. I know they tore down the garage with the green room above it where he killed himself, but some of his ashes are under a tree there.
Greenville is pretty fucking boring. Although we did get a nice apartment with two swimming pools. A dog run, work out rooms. Its almost like our condo in Green Bay. One thing nice I can say about Greenville is that it smells really good. I think all of the mid south of America smells good. Really grassy.
The only reason I am able to blog right now is because I found some of my dad's percocets and am feeling a bit better. I'm setting up an appointment to get into the methadone clinic. I know I hated the Methadone clinic last time I was on it, but I've had enough of using. I just want to be happy, to put one foot in front of the other.
We don't get to move into these new apartments until Saturday, so right now we are in a small hotel room. It has a separate bedroom for me, but its ultra small. Poor Eleanor hates it. I think we all do. Fuck I can actually smile now that the pills are kicking in.
I haven't been able to read my blogs, so I'm lost on everything. I miss my dearest Gledwood most. He's on an upswing, while I'm down in the dumps. I just want to get on this Methadone, get moved into the nice apartment, swim, workout, play with Eleanor. Methadone is my great mood stabilizer. I wish it worked like that for Gleds.
Oh yes, and how could I go by without mentioning my book, now available for ebooks, only 7.99 on Barns and noble.com or bn.com. Normally it would be 9.99. Its also available on Amazon.com for Kindle. I know who cares.
Just wanted to let you all know I'm thinking of you. I love my readers. This blog has gone to hell. When I'm on dope I'm not blogging and when I'm off dope I'm not blogging. I just can't bring myself to blog. I can't put words in a beautiful way. It makes me sick how horrible my blog is. My book too for that matter. Still buy it. I need money to get to Seattle.