I'm getting fucking fat. I've gained 10lbs. Just fucking great. I hate that part of being on Methadone. I used to resist my cravings for sweets easily, I worried more about my cravings for dope. Now its back to sweets. I eat up to three candy bars a day. At least my jeans still fit.
I watched a show Denis Nelison the serial killer from England. The show was on the ID channel here in America. Man was he a twisted man. Just when HeroinHead Shane posted about his dad's death in detail on his blog, the next day there was a show on here about his killer Click blue words to read Shane's blog. I wonder if Neilson raped his 14th victim after he died. The man was a necrophiliac. No disrespect to Shane. I feel so bad about Shane's father's and they horrible terms of which he died. Leaving behind a son, a smart son who was raised in what you'd think would be the bringing up of a serial killer, but he's not a serial killer. As far as I know. Again no disrespect, but its always the one you'd least respect.
Moving on, I haven't had sex in a while, I'm worried that I'm like the Nielson man, unable to make lasting relationships. Ever since my addiction spiraled out of control. Pete my ex stuck by me while I was spiralling out of control, but in the end we went out separate ways. He lives in Florida now, and I call him once in a great while to see what he's up to. He never calls me, except when my first came out, he called to see if I'd send him a free copy. I said no, that he had to buy it, and he did.
Oh yes, two days ago Justin Rose, a guy I was obsessed with for ever, and had a relationship with him for a while after cheating on Pete with him. Read post called Justin Rose for full details. Anyway, he emailed me via Facebook to see if I could get him something, as in H. I told him I'm back at the Methadone clinic, he told me he was just getting ff Suboxone and needed something to tide him over. I tole him I could get a bag for 50, he said he would call in an hour, but never did. I same he found something cheaper and closer by. He lives 30 mins away.
I must say I was quite excited to hear from Justin, but all he wanted from me was dope. I wish upon a star that he would fall in love with me.
Must go read some blogs now. See ya later, or rather read ya later.