I don't know if you remember my blog about Justin Rose. A guy I had a affair with about 6 years ago. Maybe more. Well he found me on Facebook. I was excited, I thought he wanted to see me. Instead he wanted me to hook him up with my dealer. He had just gotten off Suboxone, and was sick.
I had looked him up like six months ago, on facebook, but could not find him. He didn't create a profile untl June. In June I was in the midst of drug addiction. I no longer cared about finding him.
Justin is now a father to, two beautiful babies. He's a single father. He says he wants to be friends. I want to be more than friends. He doesn't text me unless he wanted drugs. I figured out he was using me for a hook up. I was the one doing the texts asking him questions, telling him how I feel about him. I don't think he's over his children's mother.
Thank goodness he got back on Subs. I was worried about him. I'm not texting him everyday or anything like that. Every now and then I will ask him how he's doing. Right now I just texted him and asked if he wanted to go see a movie, with his children. He's a big sports fan, and the Green Bay packers are playing today, so I'm betting he will say no. Is it too forward to invite a guy and his kids to movie?
I really like Justin. He's smart, funny, dark, introverted. Great taste in music. He does have a violente streak. I don't know if having babies has melowed him out at all.
Should I just butt out of his life?
I'm still working on my grammar workbooks. I'm writing this rather fast, not thinking about where comma's, and weather I should use who or whom.
Dude's I just want to get laid, perhaps have a child of my own someday. Not saying I want Justin's baby. Not saying I'm ready for a baby just yet. Still my clock is ticking.