I'm back online. I hawked my old computer, and was without Internet for a while. Yes, I did relapse. I used the 60 dollars I got for my computer to buy a bag of dope. So stupid. I used for about a week, and then upped my dose of Methadone. Now even if I wanted to get high it would cost too much, or I would OD trying to get high.
So tis the season. I sure am jolly. I got this new computer for Christmas. I watched two Christmas movies today. Home Alone, and the 1938 version of A Christmas Carol. I've been practicing my charades moves. plan on having a good old game of charades Christmas morning at my cousin's house. My mom gets my moves right away. I never guess my mom's moves. She did out of Africa, the movie. How the hell am I suppose to get that?
Last time I posted I believe it was about Justin Rose. Well, for a while we were texting each other on a consistent basis. He told me he didn't want a relationship. I was surprised at my reaction. I was not upset. I would much rather have a solid friendship than a sexual relationship. So I continued to text back and forth with him. Then one day I was like, dude; you have two babies who live with you and your a single father. You don't have a job. Your using dope. Fuck your a loser. So I deleted his phone number, deleted his facebook status as friend to not a friend. I had an ah ha moment. I don't want to be with another addict. I don't even want addict friends. What used to seem so glamours to me is now just so fucking pitiful.
I wasted my 20's on drugs. I'm going to be 29 in February. I want to have children soon, I want a writing career. I don't want to be attracted to men with no jobs, and no ambition. I don't want to date anyone who doesn't make over 50,000 dollars a year. So I'm changing my profile on okcupid.com to hopefully find that someone.
As you can tell from this post, I haven't been working on my grammar as much as I should. I still have my grammar work books, and my New Years resolution is too work on my grammar at least an hour a day. Start to write a new book. I have a couple ideas I'm playing with. Nothing solid yet.
I'm off to read all the blog's that I haven't gotten to read in a few weeks.