Thursday, December 22, 2011

Jolly old Anna

I'm back online. I hawked my old computer, and was without Internet for a while. Yes, I did relapse. I used the 60 dollars I got for my computer to buy a bag of dope. So stupid. I used for about a week, and then upped my dose of Methadone. Now even if I wanted to get high it would cost too much, or I would OD trying to get high.

So tis the season. I sure am jolly. I got this new computer for Christmas. I watched two Christmas movies today. Home Alone, and the 1938 version of A Christmas Carol. I've been practicing my charades moves. plan on having a good old game of charades Christmas morning at my cousin's house. My mom gets my moves right away. I never guess my mom's moves. She did out of Africa, the movie. How the hell am I suppose to get that?

Last time I posted I believe it was about Justin Rose. Well, for a while we were texting each other on a consistent basis. He told me he didn't want a relationship. I was surprised at my reaction. I was not upset. I would much rather have a solid friendship than a sexual relationship. So I continued to text  back and forth with him. Then one day I was like, dude; you have two babies who live with you and your a single father. You don't have a job. Your using dope. Fuck your a loser. So I deleted his phone number, deleted his facebook status as friend to not a friend. I had an ah ha moment. I don't want to be with another addict. I don't even want addict friends. What used to seem so glamours to me is now just so fucking pitiful.

I wasted my 20's on drugs. I'm going to be 29 in February. I want to have children soon, I want a writing career. I don't want to be attracted to men with no jobs, and no ambition. I don't want to date anyone who doesn't make over 50,000 dollars a year. So I'm changing my profile on to hopefully find that someone.

As you can tell from this post, I haven't been working on my grammar as much as I should. I still have my grammar work books, and my New Years resolution is too work on my grammar at least an hour a day. Start to write a new book. I have a couple ideas I'm playing with. Nothing solid yet.

I'm off to read all the blog's that I haven't gotten to read in a few weeks.


elizabeth said...

Glad to hear you didn't pursue Justin. Your goals sound right on except for the "want to have children soon." You have to learn to take care of yourself first! But I am very glad you are OK. Try to atleast blog a "hi" or something so we know you are still with us.

xo lilly (my life unspoken) said...

Welcome back, hope you have a great christmas and win at charades. ill probably be exposed to another debate about jesus, god, religion at xmas lunch. can't complain....i'm usually the one who brings up something religious which causes a big debate then just sit back and laugh at their bullshit. My mum always glares at me the second before i do knowing what i'm about to start again. At least they stop talking to me once they busy arguing about it.
Always get an enjoyable, probably youtube worthy upload from the fallout.
xo lilly

Trying to take it one day at a time said...

Glad to have you back! BTW I bought your book fort self for Christmas! It came in today's mail, cannot wait to start it. And I've been trying to find you on FB.......

Anonymous said...

you should be sterilized and not allowed to have children. (you need to get help for your mental instability)

Gledwood said...

I'm glad you have some ambitions. Getting married used to be the biggest ambition a lady had! I've watched enough costume drama ~ I know!

Anyways I just came by to wish you a VERY MERRY ONE AND A SUPERB 2012!!

Anonymous said...

So you've never worked a day in your life yet you thikn someone with a job making over 50k will be with you. Keep dreaming.