Wednesday, December 28, 2011

Porno buffering

Last night I could not sleep. Just thought after fucking thought ran through my head. I was remembering ever incident I never want to remember. Like being bent over a sink in a dirty bathroom getting fucked by some guy for a quarter of h. How I ran out on Eleanor when I relapsed this spring. Now my fucking computer is running for shit. I just watched a porno and masturbated, the fucking porn kept buffering.

Anyway, last night I ended up going and getting my dog off my parents bed, and putting her in my bed with me. Then crying until I felt like a little kid and fell asleep around four am. Then I get up to go to the clinic, and have to piss really badly. I get to the clinic and I don't have an UA, so I tell the nurse I'm going to use the bathroom. I go to open the door, and there stands some young man trying to pee. I look at him and say sorry dude. Then I go into the employee bathroom.I piss and talk to myself how this day is a bad day already. I also had an appointment with my there rapist, and by the time the appointment is I'm to lazy to go. So I lay on the couch and stew about how fucking bad my life is.

I hope tomorrow is a little better. Except I have to pay 36 dollars for not showing up to my there rapist, and now I have to wait another 90 days until I get a fucking take home. God, I hate myself and want to die.

4 comments:

xo lilly (my life unspoken) said...

hey anna.... i get real horny on the meth and i have no problem with porn. its funny how some people are so anti porn (most of society) or the husbands have to hide it from their wives and shit. people need to accept that unless they want to live out every fantasy for their partner then just accept the porn and be happy its porn, not another side-fuck. i recommend red-tube for porn without downloading it. its all free and theres every fetish/fantasy on there. and it streams fast.
Take care mate
xo Lilly

Gledwood said...

Do you really find porn so arousing? A lot of it is sheer cheaply made CRAP. The best porn I have ever seen was made by a guy calling himself Ben Dover and he holds the camera while boys fuck girls there's something very British about his sense of humour. He's been done for indecency about 6 times. They only legalized porn in this country around 1997.

PS If things had gone differently for me I'd definitely have ended up working in the sex industry but I just can't imagine having the patience waiting for some old fucker to come just so I can get a decent bag of gear that and working while you're sick must be absolutely horrible. I never flattered myself I would get female punters. I have never known women go trawling for men in cars so the type of customers you'd get is pretty obvious.

Katie B said...

hi anna, can you tell me a bit about how you got your book published please. i'm really interested.

jo said...

my laptop always overheats and shuts down when i'm watching porn. badtimes