Saturday, April 19, 2014

My life has not changed at all. I'm still just lazy fucking piece of shit. I haven't had any relapses since 2011. I am currently tapering my methadone dose 2mg a week, I was going 2 mg every three days until I hit 50mgs and got dope sick. Oh man was that a reminder of what hell life is without opiates. Soon, or rather within the next 6 months I will be fully tapered off methadone, and be without any opiates in my system. Now that I'm in my 30's my odds of staying clean for a year or more have gone up some. I'm not sure how much, but I do know that the longer a person is on methadone without using for 3+ year, and is over 30 the addict's odds go up significantly that I'll get a year clean under my belt. Heres to hoping!!

That's really all there is to know about me. Some might be interested to know that I am getting a Half Sleeve Tattoo of the Little Mermaid, Sebastian, and Flounder. I have only gotten the outlines done so far, I go in for shading after Easter, and then coloring a week after that depending on how I heal. I will post a photo when it's finished. 

8 comments:

karl said...

I haven't heard about this staying clean for a year thing etc. I'm 45 and I've been on methadone for 15yrs plus with about 2-3yrs of subutex in between. But I think it can be different for everyone, I hope so anyway.

Anonymous said...

Why didn't my post show up? All that fkn time writing a post that vanishes. Bullshit!!!!

Anonymous said...

Courtney love got straight and You can too!!

Anna Young said...

You have no idea how many times I spent an hour or more in a comment only for it to fuc*ing vanish when I go to publish it. It's discouraging for sure.

Anonymous said...

We have lots in common it seems. I got hooked on oxy about 6 years ago. The fact my mom died at 47 from abusing booze and pain pills should have been enough to send me screaming from my drs office when he offered me oxys for my spinal stenosis but no, I took the noose and happily put it around my neck. The hell that followed is typical. I got free a few times, endured hellish wds just to fuck it all up again in a couple months. I'm on 60 Mgs of meth and I fucking hate it. It's made me a fat, lethargic, depressed and sweaty mess. Some days I think about going back to oxys but deep down I know that's a fantastically stupid fucking idea. My script never lasted more then a few days. I snorted them like a Hoover and blew all my money to buy them when I ran out. Nah I don't think I want that again but I don't want to be on meth either. A real fucking connundrum. I made my bed I'll lie in it, I made my bed I'll die in it.. I love nirvana and hole too. I'm old (38) so I even got to see the concerts but I never thought I'd be a 38 year old meth dependent fuckup. Some days the reality is enough to kill me. But I go on..deep down hoping that there is a better life ahead. God I hope so. Your doing amazing with getting off meth. That bone rotting, liquid devil saves lives but fucks them up too. Lesser of evils I guess. Stay strong and you'll be off the shit in no time. The juices will flow again :) Moonshyne

Maureen said...

Anna, tell your reader's language matter's. Meth ,methadone, sounds like a methamphetamine addict! Let Us Get The Proper Language here. Anna; I'll read more later. Keep up the good work; you bring a smile to many of us. Toby too. Love; Maureen

Maureen said...

Moonsyne, get your facts right! Methadone does none of those things. Education will help you. Read up on it. It doesn't rot your bones; etc. Bullshit! Peace out!

snarevox said...

It doesnt rot your bones...it builds up in your bones..hence the hellish two.month kick...fuck readin, I KNOW.